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    With all of the things that are going wrong in this world, it amazes me the being Gay seems to be at the top of everyone’s list. Something that has nothing to do with you, unless you are gay, has become the talk of the global world. And as usual, Black people the world over, are being used to spread the hate. Much like Blacks were crucified and vilified in California with the passing of Prop 8, the nation of Uganda is being used to take hate against Gay people to a whole new level!
     
    A group called the International Healing Foundation is traveling the world stating that Gay people can be turned straight. This idea was presented to the Ugandan Parliament earlier this year and from that session, a bill calling for the execution of gays was drafted. Not only that, but if a person knows someone who is gay, they are required to turn that person in to the authorities or face prison time themselves. Renting homes or apartments to gays can also get you prison time. Doctors can be jailed for treating HIV/AIDS patients or gays. People with HIV/AIDS can be executed. Gay people period can be executed. Even Ugandans living in other countries can be executed for homosexual activity. WTF????
     
    What is even more appalling about what Uganda is attempting to do is the silence coming from Washington. There has been no comment from any members of our government. But then again. What could they possible say without being considered hypocrites? The Defense of Marriage Act/DOMA and Don’t Ask Don’t Tell are still on the books. And as I said in earlier posts, if the United States federal government discriminates against Lesbians and Gays, why should states not follow right behind them? And if the most powerful nation in the world discriminates against Lesbians and Gays, why shouldn’t other countries take it a step further? And to top it off, many of the Anti Gay Hate groups in Uganda are being funded by the UNITED STATES!
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      Getting an invitation to the White House is a big deal. And the State House invitation is a once in a lifetime, if you are lucky, event. So to hear that two idiots were able to get into the White House WITHOUT BEING INVITED, should be a concern for anyone who is paying attention. Because there have been covert and overt threats against President Obama’s life. And for two people to be able to get by the Secret Service apparently with ease, should make everyone cringe. Because if someone could slip past all of that security and make it into the event is a scary thought. Was this a dry run for things to come?
       
      There is a movement afoot where religious zealots are using Psalm 109:8 and 109:9, to call for the assassination of President Obama. This saying is being printed on Bumper Stickers, Hats, Shirts, Coffee Mugs, teddy bears, and mouse pads. For those of you who don’t know what these two verses say, here they are:

      Psalm 109:8
      states: May his days be few; may another take his place of leadership.
       
      Psalm 109:9 states: May his children be fatherless
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        After the passage of Prop 8 in california, it was fashionable to blame “blacks and hispanics” because on the whole, some of them voted for it’s passage. Long discussions were bantered back and forth about “how could ‘they’ vote to legalize discrimination.” Blogs were posting daily after the passage of Prop 8 about how to “reach out to ‘those communities.’ ” But I have yet to hear ONE WORD from ANYONE in the Lesbian or Gay communities about the “white people” who just passed Prop 1 in the state of maine!
         
        The state of maine has over 1.3 million people in it according to the 2008 census. Of that 1.3 million people, 97% is white. So the passage of Prop 1 in maine was done by white people! Where are the Lesbian and Gay voices now? Where is the blaming, the gnashing of the teeth, and the name calling now? The silence is deafening!
         
        As I had stated when Prop 8 passed, even if every registered black and hispanic voted for Prop 8, that was NOT the deciding factor. The vote was passed by white people! Yet the “minorities” took the brunt of the criticism for the passage. It wasn’t appreciated THEN and it still isn’t appreciated.
         
        So hear this white Lesbians and Gays. You BETTER keep blacks and hispanics name OUT OF YOUR MOUTHS when it comes to Same Couple Marriage. Because while there is no excuse for BIGOTRY, DISCRIMINATION, and/or HATE, white people are the ones passing these propositions. So before you start looking into someone else’s backyard, CLEAN UP YOURS FIRST! Because RACISM is still the “biggest ism” there is. And your silence on this issue JUST PROVES IT!
         
        Oh, but don’t get this SHIT twisted blacks and hispanics. That doesn’t get you off the hook ONE BIT! Because for a group of people who CONTINUE to experience discrimination, to turn around and do it to someone else is PATHETIC! You, those “minorities” who voted for Prop 8, are still BIGOTS, POOR EXCUSES FOR HUMAN BEINGS and COWARDS! And don’t YOU forget that EITHER!


          The latest salvo in the Same Couple Marriage debate, was a “bikini model” masquerading as a Miss USA candidate, speaking for the “whole country, saying that marriage is between a man and a women.” And this is what was taught to her in her home mind you. What galls me is that while people are more than within their right to state their bigoted opinions, those opinions affect people’s lives. Within the last two weeks, two bright preteen boys committed suicide because they were being bullied and teased MERCILESSLY because they were thought to be gay. Another kid, 17yr old Eric Mohat, was told to go ahead and commit suicide, because “no one will miss you.” It is in this climate of BIGOTRY, HATE, and INTOLERANCE, that the way to keep “someone in their place” is to call them “gay!”
           
          That two kids committed suicide because of being teased at school has pretty much gone unnoticed. Kids tease other kids. Boys will be boys. But for those two kids, it obviously was more than that. That days of upon days, weeks upon weeks, and months upon months, of being called “fag“, “queer“, “homo“, and “gay” took their toll of these young boy’s self esteem. And even when the mother’s of these two boys continually called to try and resolve this situation, it was met with a blind eye and a deaf ear. When the government requires that you attend school, doesn’t the government have the obligation to make sure it is safe, physically and emotionally, to be there?
           
          As I stated in an ealier post, I was teased in college about “looking” at girls. Nothing to the extent that these kids went through but yeah, it got old quickly. So I know EXACTLY how they felt. For me, the torment would be intermittent and last no more than 3 hours, depending on the class. I can’t imagine being someplace for 6 or more hours and treated to choruses of verbal abuse. So even when they woke up in great moods, ready to tackle the world, within minutes of being in school, that state of mind was under assault, on a daily basis, for no good reason.
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            Back in February of 2008, Michelle Obama, the new first lady of the United States of America, made a comment that she hadn’t been proud to be an American for some 26 years. She was vilified in the press for that comment and many people questioned whether America should elect someone whose wife is ashamed of the country he wants to lead. What many white people failed to realize it that the sentiment that Michelle stated spoke for millions of African Americans in this country. And for 25 years of my adult life, that included me! 

            Any African American of “Generation X” is old enough to know what happened in the 40′s, 50′s, and 60′s, and young enough to know that while some things have changed, many have just been hidden under the rug. When I heard the comment and the ensuing brouhaha, my first reaction was “yeah and.” The real problem is that many white people, even those who say they have “Black friends” have never sat down and had a REAL CONVERSATION, about each other’s true feelings about race in this country. A conversation that doesn’t point fingers, that doesn’t accuse, but just lays it/racism as we see it. If and when that conversation ever occurs, race relations will take another giant leap forward.

            The thought that a Black man would be elected to be president in my lifetime was unfathomable. Yet on November 4, 2008, history was made. Barack Obama was elected president. And his message of inclusion obviously struck a cord that transcended race, age, occupation, sex, and sexual preference. While Obama’s “message of inclusion” created history, not only for America, but for the world, his message was certainly lost for 52 percent of californians.

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