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Anyone who has been paying attention has seen the ugliness and outright hatred that has been displayed towards Lesbian and Gays wanting equal rights. From hate crimes that have led to the beatings and deaths of Lesbian, Gay, and Transgendered people, to the creation of laws that TAKE AWAY the RIGHTS of Lesbian, Gay and Transgendered people, to blaming us for natural disasters, the hate has been overt and nasty. And the use of the bible as an excuse and the reason behind the actions of some people is disgusting. What is most disturbing is the statement from these people that “following the teachings of the church is not bigotry” is laughable. Because the “teachings” they are following is being twisted to teach hate.
 
Nom, the National Organization for Marriage, led by Brian Brown and Maggie Gallagher, and FRC, the Family Research Council, led by Tony Perkins, have been at the forefront of the “stop the Lesbians and Gays” movement. And the sad part about this is that they are using the same rhetoric that was used in the 1950′s against African Americans. Nom and FRC have spent MILLIONS of dollars to fund Prop 8 in California and Prop 1 in Maine., They have gone to great lengths to hide their finances from government agencies looking into their deeds. All under the guise of “christianity.” Some of their deeds have been comical, some have been shameful, but many have been scary.
 
Nom has had two “bus tours” driving around the country to spread their hate. But to their chagrin, their spectacles have been complete and utter flops. Their “stops” have had more people protesting against what they are saying than has been there to support them. Oh but there is a reason for that. Ready? It’s because the protesters, i.e. Lesbians and Gays … DON’T HAVE JOBS! Yes, that was actually a comment that was made by Brian Brown when one of his stops had less than 20 supporters and hundreds of protesters. As if being unemployed, in this economy, is funny.
 
Both NOM and the FRC are under investigation by the states of California and Maine, among others, for failing to provide financial records of their campaign contributions. Not only have they failed to provide those records, they have gone out of their way to ignore legal orders to do so. They have lost every appeal but refuse to follow the law and file the required campaign papers with these states. Sounds awful “christian” to me. What about you?
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In a earlier blog post, I commented on high school football officials who were fined, suspended a couple of games, and might possible miss the state tournament, because they used pink whistles to honor and support Breast Cancer Awareness week. I stated that this was a ridiculous situation and that the Washington State official’s chair, Todd Stordahl, was an idiot for the stance he was taking. Well the Idiots Club just got bigger!
 
A high school kicker in Mendenhall High school, in the state of Mississippi, was kicked off the team for wearing pink cleats! He wore them during a game, then again at the next practice, and was told to take them off. When he refused, he was kicked off the team! Lord save me!
 
The cleats were a gift from his 82 year old grandmother who is a breast cancer survivor. Coy Sheppard was honoring both Breast Cancer awareness and his grandmother. But for some reason the coaches had a problem with the pink cleats. In the past, Coy has worn colored cleats with absolutely no problem. But when the cleat color changed to pink, that was the final straw. Remove them or get kicked off the team. There was no reason given why Sheppard was asked to take off the cleats. WOW!!
 
If Sheppard had never worn colored cleats in the past, I wouldn’t have any problems with him being kicked off the team. But that isn’t the case. When the color changes to pink, it became an issue? The Simpson County School District, deputy superintendent, Tom Duncan, says “it’s not about breast cancer awareness. It’s about not following the coaches instructions.” Yeah right? Dare I say it? The real reason pink became an issue?
 
The Simpson County School District isn’t that far from the Itawamba School district. The same district in Mississippi that denied Constance McMillen the right to bring her girlfriend to the prom! And was just ordered to pay Ms. McMillen over $100,000.00 in compensation and lawyer’s fees. The color pink is one of the symbols of homosexuality. An isolated incident? I think not! Again, no reason was given for Coy being asked to take the pink cleats off. But I am waiting with bated breath to hear that reason! Did I mention that Coy is allowed to apply school credits for playing football, and because of the removal from the team, may not graduate on time? Much like the football officials who were suspended because they used pink whistles, the logic behind the reprimands are questionable. Sheppard has filed a lawsuit to get reinstated to the team and complete his high school education. Hopefully cooler heads will prevail and Coy will be able to get back on the team and finish high school with his classmates.
 
I’d hate to think homophobia is this and and irrational. That a kid honoring his grandmother and supporting Breast Cancer awareness, would be kicked off the team for wearing pink cleats! Until we get the “REAL REASON” for Coy being kicked off the team, that is my story and I’m sticking to it! And I’m Not Feeling It at all!!!!!

To be honest with ya, I’ve been fortunate to meet some great people in my life. From awesome teachers and professors to great fellow students and coworkers. From grade school all the way up to today. With the advent of Facebook, people who I have known for over 40 years have reconnected with me. Some of these people grew up in the same neighborhood that I did. Some of them I met in elementary school through high school, and some I worked with. But even though I don’t have that many “friends”, the ones I do have hold special memories for me. But I have one friend who is not here. I lost him in junior high school. His name was Chuck.
 
In my area of the planet, when you graduate from elementary school, you go to a junior high school that brings kids together from a fairly wide area of the city. So for me, I met new people at Lemon Grove Jr. High. One of those people was Chuck. He was a year older than I was, but we hit it off immediately!
 
I don’t know if Chuck was gay but he had effeminate characteristics. It didn’t matter to me, I just liked him. He was one of those people who always had a smile on his face and made you feel good. He was smart and funny and you liked to be around him. He had lots of friends and EVERYONE knew him. If you need a visual of what Chuck was like, picture Jack McFarland from Will and Grace, MINUS the narcissism! I remember dancing with him at the school dances and laughing with him in passing in the halls in between classes. He was one of those people who you thought would be successful if only on his personality alone.
 
Yeah, I remember people saying he was “gay” or calling him a “fag” on many occasions, but it seemed to roll of his back. I don’t know the extent of any physical bullying, but since it was the late 70′s, I wouldn’t doubt that it didn’t happen to Chuck. Again, because he was funny, he was always able to turn torment into laughter. He just had that knack!
 
The summer after the 7th grade, when we came back to school, the school was hit with the news. Chuck had committed suicide. Many people speculated that he got tired of being harassed, both in his neighborhood or at home and at school because of his “feminine ways.” Either way it was a huge blow to me. I didn’t know what a “Lesbian” was, but I knew I liked girls. And I knew I was “different”, just like Chuck. Chuck was the first of 8 suicides of people that I knew personally. Not ” a friend of a friend” but people I cared about. People who for whatever reason, we connected. On a spiritual level.
 
With the rash of teen suicides in the last month, at least nine if I count correctly, Chuck has come rushing back to me. That nine teenagers, who haven’t really had the chance to enjoy life, are no longer here. That they saw no other outlet for the bullying except to commit suicide. And that the torment Chuck went through is now global. And how you can be humiliated and have it seen by millions of people, in seconds. Little did I know, I would face something similar myself.
 
At San Diego City College, there was a rumor that I was a lesbian. No one ever said they saw me with another woman. No one ever said they saw me do anything with any women. What was said is that I “looked” at other women. YUP, that was my crime! Not like Jack Tripper used to look at Chrissy, Janet, and Terry, just looked at them. And I endured semesters of whispers, murmurs, and pointing. And should someone not have known about my “crime”, it was quickly brought to their attention. Luckily for me, most of the people who were “told about me” didn’t seem to care. They continued to talk to me and it didn’t matter. But yes, there were times when I didn’t want to go to class. And times where I was ready to toss people off of the second floor of the building we were on. But I was in my mid twenties and saw the bigger picture. And the fact that I was usually one of the people who always “fucked up the curve”, I was able to get my revenge that way! No one had the balls to come up to my face and say anything. But the murmurs and other crap were aggravating just the same.
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A bus driver and her aid were suspended WITHOUT PAY for the abuse of a 10-year old girl. They should both get their triflin asses kicked!
 
While on the bus to go home, a male aide, Lafayette Clark, decided that he wanted to have a conversation with one of the kids on the bus. The girl didn’t want to participate in the conversation and told the aide that. With that, the male aide grabbed the girl’s neck and pointed her face towards him. He then grabbed both of her wrists and squeezed them together. The pain made the girl start to cry and tell him to “stop because he was hurting her.” He then grabbed her arm. And for the grand finale, he squeezed the seat beat that was stretched around her and tightened it. He then told HER to APOLOGIZE! The loser bus driver, Latasha Anderson, called the office and told them she had a “combative child” on the bus. She then turned to Clark and told him that “he owes her.”
 
This poor baby was afraid to go to school the next day after that event and was only willing to get on the bus when she saw it wasn’t the same bus driver and aide. She then didn’t want to go home because she was afraid she would have those same two creeps on the bus. She finally told her grandfather who complained to the district. Both of these bitches were arrested on March 3, 2010. And just in case anyone thinks this was a case of a child making false accusations against an adult, the whole event was caught on tape!
 
I’m not going to lie, if that was my grandchild, only an act of god would have been able to pull me off of both of them. I would have waited for my grandbaby to get off the bus then dragged both of those clowns off and beat the BLACK off of both of them! As my “uncle Ron “likes to say, I would have “knocked fire from their asses!” Not only do they both deserve jail time but they should have to register as offenders and NEVER be allowed to work with or around children again!
 
The driver had worked for the transportation department for 16 years. Not only is she probably and BETTER lose her job, but she may face jail time. For a miserable PUNK who physically, emotionally, and spiritually abused a 10 year old girl. I hope this MISERABLE BITCH has children. And I hope THEY ask her why she let someone abuse a child. And I hope she has a good answer for that question. Because it looks like she put her career and livelihood on the line for a COWARD!

One of the many things that this recession has done is to hold up a mirror to how Americans think and feel about money. Because those people who already have more money that God should allow want more and those people who don’t have any money, want to be able to keep a roof over their heads. And those people in between just want to keep what little they have. Yet it has been those people who have the most who are doing and saying anything to keep it. And as an example, I present South Carolina Lt. Governor Andre Bauer to equated feeding/giving poor people welfare to “feeding stray animals.
 
People are poor for a myriad of reasons. Some people are born into poverty and can never vision another way of living. Some people are forced into poverty by a job loss, a death of the primary wage earner, or a medical disaster. And yes, there are some people for whom welfare is a right of passage. But NO ONE with more than one working brain cell can say that waiting on a check is living because it isn’t. It’s existing. And that isn’t living! But here is where the mirror that is being held up to vilify the poor is being conveniently covered up when it is aimed at CORPORATE WELFARE!
 
The American Government has given BILLIONS OF DOLLARS to FOR PROFIT CORPORATIONS who have mis-managed, stolen, fraudulently spent, and gave out in bonus’s, to people who have been eating with silver spoons for decades! Not to mention people who run Corporations who on top of THEIR WELFARE also get LOCAL, STATE, and FEDERAL TAX BREAKS! These same people spent millions on “corporate junkets and vacations”, and corporate jets, luxury sports sky boxes, and expensive alcohol and food that was as abundant as McDonald hamburgers. Yet these exact same “Captains of Industry” came with their hats in their hands to the Government trough and got billions of “Corporate Welfare Money.” Oh, sorry, the term for Corporate Welfare is “BAILOUT!” If poor people, many of whom never had a chance to succeed are “stray animals”, what would you call people who have WASTED more money than has been paid out to welfare recipients? LEECHES! BLOODSUCKERS? MOLD? FUNGUS? Whatever is considered LESS than ANIMALS, that is what they are!
 
Bauer’s comments have been met with scorn by both Republicans and Democrats alike. And he has stated that he meant what he said, he just should have used another word for animal. What a great guy! I would love to hear him explain giving BILLIONS to RICH PEOPLE would be considered. And what word he would apply to these WELFARE TAKERS? He’d probably call them “FRIENDS“, COLLEAGUES, DONORS, and SUPPORTERS.
 
“Mirror, Mirror, on the wall, let’s add another HYPOCRITE to the wall.” Calling Andre Bauer to, your SPOT is now available!
 
 

To put it bluntly, I’m sick of hearing or seeing Chris Brown. He’s a BITCH and a COWARD. And now he has the AUDACITY to complain about Rhianna going on 20/20 and talking about the night he BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF HER ! It is OBVIOUS that he still hasn’t learned a DAMN THING from this incident and still thinks the world revolves around him. It is OBVIOUS he hasn’t learned a DAMN THING from the Domestic Abuse classes he is supposed to be taking. It is OBVIOUS the so called “spiritual advise he is going to seek” isn’t helping one bit! And it is even MORE OBVIOUS that he is still an abuser. Because by saying that the “incident should stay between us“, he is using the same language and exhibiting the same behavior as an abuser.
 
Hey, I understand that people make mistakes. And I understand that everyone should be given a second chance. But that chance is only given when that person is TRULY SORRY. I have yet to see any real remorse in any interview he has done. He always looks like the “class nerd” whose lab experiment went ACCIDENTALLY wrong. Like the kid in class who had a “bad idea” and says he will never do it again. All the while, he has his fingers crossed behind his back. He sounds like Eddie Haskell from the “Leave it to Beaver show” talking to Mrs. Cleaver and telling her “what a pretty dress she has on.” Even when he is giving her praise, you always think there is “something under his sleeve! Almost every word looks like he has been standing in front of a mirror saying it over and over again. Practicing the right inflection in his voice. The right pause or eyebrow raise. All those interviews seem to happen to try and rehabilitate his reputation. And not what is should be. To take full ownership of what he has done!
 
And now he is saying what happened that night should stay between him and Rhianna. WHY? So HE won’t look bad? So he can get his “life back?” And his donation of concert proceeds to Domestic Abuse Centers seems hollow and another way to make himself look good. If he wouldn’t have put his hands on Rhianna in the first place, none of his problems would have happened. He is almost trying to make it sound like HE is the VICTIM! But it isn’t working.
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I went through a period where I had the “neighbor council” sat in their “Community Cowards” meetings and decided to pick and choose who to call the police on. Not because we were bad neighbors. Not because we threw loud parties. Not because we were selling drugs. We had the police called to our house because a REGISTERED CAR hadn’t been moved within 72 hours. And to prove that I was being harassed, I moved my car EVERYDAY and took pictures. I then sent those pictures to myself through email. That provided a DATE and TIME STAMP. And when I contested the ticket, and sent in my evidence, low and behold, the city refunded my money. I guess they saw one HELL OF A LAWSUIT and decided that it wasn’t worth $41.00. Why am I bring this up? Because I recently read that a town in the wealthy section of Bridgeport, Connecticut is in the throes of a major legal battle. Over a stone fence!!!!
 
It seems like a family built a stone fence in the same position of a former fence on their property. Another neighbor complained about the fence saying that it was on “private lane” and that all of the neighbors would be liable if something happened. The city is saying that the fence is environmentally wrong because it encroaches on the wetlands. The family has already spent $150,000.00 on legal fees. And they could conceivable spend another $150,000.00 until the case is completed. Then another $50,000.00 on modifications to try and appease everyone. The fence was built at a cost of $170,000.00. So already they have spent $370,000.00 and the case hasn’t even gone to court. Should the Lilliens lose the case, they will have to spend another $120,000.00 to tear the fence down! And don’t forget, the officials of Bridgeport Connecticut have had to spend money to bring and defend their case too. Taking money and resources from the citizens. Did I forget to mention that the city got the complaint about the fence as it was being built, and didn’t stop it???
 
That this has gotten this far is ridiculous. There are people who have lost their houses for half of the money that is being spent do defend a fence. And it seems like these types of “lawsuits” are common among rich people. They get into pissing contests with each other and use real money like it was “monopoly money” and see who can spend the most money. All in the name of “principle.” The money that is being spent to amuse rich people could fund some non-profits for a year.
 
For this to be a problem, it just means that these people have too much fucking money and even more time on their hands!

When the economy gets bad, and people get desperate, they do things they wouldn’t normally do. Like selling family heirlooms or other possessions. And when you see commercials like the one for “Cash4Gold” that seems to be a dream come true for struggling people, who doesn’t hesitate to do business with them? But should you? From the mouths of a couple of former employees, the answer is a resounding “NO!”
 
Let me say this upfront. Every time I saw the Cash4Gold commercials, something didn’t seem right to me. My suspicious mind always went to the other side of this transaction. Because I always wondered about what would happen if my jewelry never got there? Or THEY said it never got there? Or what happens if they say you sent in a bracelet and you know that you sent in a thick gold necklace? What happens then? What recourse does the consumer have? Well it looks like my suspicious mind was right on the mark!
 
A former employee blew the whistle and listed ten things that the consumer doesn’t know about doing business with Cash4Gold. And a couple of theses things were the issues that concerned me. For doing so, she was hit with a lawsuit, and a summary judgment was placed against her. More on that later. But she states that consumers are low balled on the quality of their jewelry, they are stonewalled about their checks, and if they complain, they are offered more money “just to go away.” Employees are given bonuses if keep as much money as possible.
 
An investigation by the ComplaintsBoard.com showed that Cash4Gold pays the consumer a third of the value of their gold. Meaning a pawn shop would offer you $198.00 and cash for gold offers $60.00. That means you lose $138.00 dollars on the deal. That doesn’t sound like Cahs4Gold cares about it’s customers does it? For their investigation, the Complaintsboard.com has been sued also! Cash4Gold is sounded better and better all of the time! NOT!!!!
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One of my first Blog posts was about a Christian College, Point Loma Nazarene University, in San Diego, CA , that was busted for hazing. These supposed “Christians” made the freshman were, “awakened at 2:00am and forced to walk to the beach and swim naked.” Some if not all of the students were “slapped” and some were “urinated upon.” I stated that it sounded like a sort of “gang initiation” but because the participants were “white” and at a “Christian college” that it was just considered hazing. I also stated that just because you are at or in a college atmosphere, it doesn’t mean you are better than anyone else. If just means that you were able to find a way to get there. Whether through your parents, grandparents or scholarships. It is now coming to light that a Black Sorority at the University of Colorado has shown that sort of behavior is not only STUPID, but it is COLOR BLIND TOO!
 
CSU’s Omicron Omicron chapter of Zeta Phi Beta, a national black sorority is said to have subjected pledges to “torturous” activities, deprived them of sleep, and made them eat “cat food.” One of the pledges felt so bad that she actually sought out medical attention! During something called the “seven hours of hell” held at Adesuwa Elaiho, sorority president’s apartment, recruits were forced to run, eat animal food and perform boot-camp like training. Another leader, Antoinette Hill, told the recruits if they were to “throw up we would have to lick the vomit off the floor. So they threw up inside their suits,” one victim said in her statement to police. This was after doing hours of calisthenics, eating ONIONS, and drinking KITTY MILK! They were made to support themselves on one arm and on their toes, in a “plank position” and count to 1920. That is the year the sorority came into being. Allegedly if anyone “dropped,” failed to count, or made a mistake, they all had to start over again. One recruits arms and shoulders were so swollen that she sought medical attention!
 
Bottom line is that the ring leaders should be charged with a crime and prosecuted. This is what is always said about Black women in power. That they will ABUSE THAT POWER or use it to keep other Black people, ESPECIALLY other Black women down. There is no excuse for this type of behavior. It’s “low class”, ” no class”, and TRIFLIN! This was nothing less than a gang initiation. Don’t try and sugar coat it. Don’t try and justify it. And don’t try and explain it. Gang initiation is not much different than what occurred here. And these SORRY BITCHES should be treated as gang leaders and sent to jail. Even if it is only for 6 months. Maybe they will then understand the magnitude of what they did!

I read with humor the recent article that retold the events that occurred when President Obama invited select Lesbian and Gay activists to the White house. From all reports, attendees laughed and squealed with glee at everything that “Mr. Obama” said. Even his call for the Lesbian and Gay community to be “patient” was met with a nod. And while I understand that the economy is probably a bigger concern, forty years after the Stonewall Riots, haven’t we been patient enough?
 
On June 28, 1969, a Gay club in New York, the Stonewall Inn, was raided by the police, a common occurrence at that time. Often patrons were beaten before being thrown in the back of the paddy wagon. But on this occasions, the patrons decided enough was enough and fought back. This act led to a riot that went on for days. And this event is said to be one of the “flash points” of the Gay Civil Rights movement.
 
That event occurred forty years ago. And to me, the fact that we are still fighting this same fight is an injustice of untold proportions. We are still getting beaten up by the police, we are still being fired from jobs, we are still not allowed to be with our partners in hospitals, Don’t Ask, Don’t Tell is still being on the books, DOMA is still on the books, the Hate crimes bill still is not a national law, and certain members of the public still think they should be able to use violence against us. And the violence part has become personal to me.
 
While answering some email, I was sent a link to a youtube video of a young kid, who was assaulted because she was seen hugging and kissing her girlfriend in public. I call her a young kid because I knew her when she was a kid. At twenty-five, she is a grown woman. The assault was so bad, that she needs to have reconstructive surgery. That some idiot felt it necessary to assault someone isn’t new. It happens all of the time. That Gay people are assaulted isn’t new either. That event OCCURS ALL THE TIME TOO! The FACT that I have known Rhythm and her family since the early 2000′s makes this personal to me.
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