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As we all know, we are in a recession. Regardless of what the pundits, Federal Reserve, legislators, or President says, it’s a recession. And nearly every part of the economic pie is getting bitten. And while in the past, it was an “employees market”, it is now the employers market. Meaning employers now have the power and they can ask for the moon and the stars from employees, both current and potential because they know the fear of not having a job is an all too real threat. And now, with more people than ever getting welfare, food stamps, and unemployment, we have the government throwing their weight around. They are now trying to pass laws saying if you are getting a handout from the government, you must pass random drug tests! Craig Blair, a Republican in the West Virginia Legislature, is spearheading a law to require random drug tests of people getting government benefits.
 
I certainly don’t to allow someone to sit around collecting welfare, food stamps, or unemployment to getting their “party on” using tax dollars. But to say that ONLY those people should be required to pass drug tests is questionable at best, and elitist at worse. If those people collecting welfare, food stamps, and unemployemnt benefits should be tested, what about the people who got “corporate welfare” re-named BAILOUTS! Where are their drug tests? Because they must have been on the “good shit” to have even gotten us into this mess! And what about the officers at A.I.G.? OOPPS. I mean A.I.U. They changed their name! (Like that is going to hide the stench of what they did!) For them to first even consider passing out bonuses, and worse, to ACCEPT THEM, must mean they are on something. Million dollar bonuses to people whose company took welfare from the American taxpayers. Am I missing something here??? So let’s add to the random drug tests, anyone who accepted money in the form of a bailout, loan, or bonus, from the American government!
 
And while we are at it, since the consensus seems to be that “no one is forcing them to apply for benefits” no one forced you, Mr. Blair, to run for office. And you are getting taxpayer benefits called a SALARY! So why don’t we add mayors, judges, police chiefs, sheriffs, senators, , governors, congressmen and women, and the president, to the list of people who should take random drug tests. Aren’t they getting benefits too!!! Let’s see how fast that idea falls to the way side!
 
Test all or test none. This picking and choosing of who to test and who not to test is just wrong. Because welfare is welfare regardless of whether it is $700.00 a month check or it’s called a MILLION DOLLAR BONUS or BILLION DOLLAR BAILOUT!!!!!!!

As I said in a previous post, cops aren’t my favorite people. And it doesn’t matter if they are gay or straight, male or female, black or white. In my almost 28 years of driving, I have been harassed, followed, and jack up by the police more times than I care to remember. And I have heard cops laughing and giggling about how they “made someone’s day” by giving them a bogus ticket. Yeah, real funny. Like I said, most of them are GANG MEMBERS with BADGES! And before anyone comments by saying “then don’t call the cops when you need help if that is the way you feel about it.” Trust me, most African Americans only call the police as a LAST RESORT because we know they are going to give a HALF-ASSED EFFORT in helping us so WHAT’S THE USE!!!!!!! But this incident has my blood boiling.
 
Professional Football player Ryan Moats was stopped by a cop for running a red light turning into a hospital. When he was stopped, he informed the cop that his mother-in-law was DYING and that was the reason he ran the light. Ryan’s wife, whose mother was dying, tried to explain the situation but the cop, Mr. Robert Powell, didn’t seem to care. Fearing that she wasn’t going to be able to say her final goodbye to the woman who raised her, Tamishia Moats ran into the hospital. We are all lucky that this heartless cop didn’t shoot her in the back!!!
 
Living in california and being a woman, and having an incident where Kara Knott was killed by a CHP, we have been told to put our flashers on if we feel nervous about the area we are being requested to stop at by the police. We were told that putting the flashers on lets the cop know that we see them. Moats’ did just that. The dashboard camera, showed just how cowardly Mr. Powell was. The more Moats tried to explain the situation, the angrier the cop became. After a heated exchange, Powell said, “Shut your mouth! You can either settle down and cooperate or I can just take you to jail for running a red light.” Ryan was also told his car could be towed. That he could be put in handcuffs. Take someone to jail for running a red light!!! You have got to be kidding me!
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I’m trying to wrap my head around this concept. For those people living in california, you know that every time you look around, there seems a new tax, a rise in food prices, or gas prices, or a loss of jobs. And now there is a San Francisco representative, Tom Ammiano, who wants to tax marijuana .
 
Ok, first thing is that while californians have passed Prop 215 that allows for the growing and use of marijuana for medical purposes. Yet marijuana dispensaries are being raided on a weekly basis. And it is still against Federal Law. Second, and how I understand it, the state would put a $50.00 fee on an ounce of marijuana. L. M. F. A. O. !!! Why would I pay $150.00 for an ounce of marijuana when I can still go to the “neighborhood dealer” and get the same or BETTER marijuana for $50.00 less???? Why would a drug dealer pay $5,000.00 for a “franchise fee” and another $2,500.00, on a yearly basis mind you, when they don’t have to? How many legitimate business owners waited until they started making “real money” before they got all of the licenses, permits, and “legalese” worked out??? Many people want to keep the government out of their business. Why would I let them into something like this????
 
Lastly, and this is what really pisses me off the most. The citizens of this state voted against Same Sex Marriage. A decision that cost this state potentially $684 million dollars. The Williams Institute at U.C.L.A. predicted gay men and lesbians would spend alot of money on wedding cakes, photographers, tuxedos, hotel rooms, and related wedding trappings. So here we have an untapped market that has a “trickle down” effect and was voted away. Here is a market that would pull people from not only other states, BUT OTHER COUNTRIES as well, to add money to our state coffers. But noooooo! We would rather have the governor raise sales and income taxes, and have cuts to many social service programs.
 
Either way, the state of california loses. Because instead of people coming here to get married, they are going to Massachuttes, Vermont, and Rhode Island. Oh, and instead of californians staying here and getting married, we are “heading east.” Kinda puts a new spin on the “east coast, west coast” debate doesn’t it! To smoke or get married. What a dilema!

I read with amusement the article about about actress Valerie Bertinelli appearing on the cover of People Magazine in a bikini. She recently lost a combined 40 pounds to take her 5’2” inch frame down to 132 from a high of 172 pounds. She did it the right way, eating and working out as opposed to me doing it the wrong way, fasting and working out, and reached her goal. What the hell is the problem?
 
Lately there have been articles talking about the weight of Jessica Simpson and Beyonce. With Simpson, she is being called “fat” because in some pictures, it looks like she has put on a little weight. With Beyonce, she wore a dress that hugged her body and people were saying she put on weight. I’d KILL to weigh what they weigh. If that is what “fat” looks like, we are all doomed!
 
Lastly, WHEN, not IF I get down to my ideal weight, I will be showing my body off too! I might not be in a bikini, but I will be in a “one piece” that will make the bikini look like a “nun’s habit“!!!!
 
To Valerie Bertinelli I say, “go head girlfriend“!! Be proud of what you have accomplished and be proud of your body. You have earned the right to pose any way you want to!

 
 

My first real “job” was at 16 years old. I was a softball umpire in the league that I once played in. And I remember realizing very early, that for sports officials, you NEVER HAVE A HOME GAME! And I also found out at an early age, remember, this was the early 80’s, that adults can be real assholes! Especially when it comes to sports. I was verbally abused, in front of their children, by people who should have known better. But I never let my “position of power” go to my head. I kept a cool head when chaos reigned supreme! And the fact that I was a large size person didn’t hurt any either!
 
I have always given officials the benefit of the doubt when I watch sports. I guess that is part of the “officiating fraternity” that I belong to. I know that most good officials don’t want to be the deciding factor of any sports event. And when we make a bad call, and I made a few myself, we feel almost as bad as the team that received the bad call. But we are people too. And we make mistakes. But as a fan, I have watched officials let that power go to their heads. And it seems like professional Basketball officials seem to be the worse culprits!
 
I was watching the Boston Celtic/Chicago Bulls game on Wednesday March 18, 2009, and thought the officiating was awful. Boston was getting served an “old fashion” case of “home cooking.” It seemed like every call went against them. And some calls weren’t even close. Boston coach Doc Rivers got one technical arguing a call. As a former official, and a former basketball and softball player, I know that sometimes coaches get “techs” to try and fire up their teams. But there are also times when they get techs because they feel their guys are getting screwed over by the refs. The first tech was definitely one of those “screwed over” techs. But the second tech, the one that got Doc thrown out of the game was chincy to say the least. Doc says that the ref goaded him into the tech by staring at him. The Doc walked away from the ref, Bill Kennedy, who continued to stare at him. When Doc responded to the stare by saying “what”, he was promptly “t’d up” and thrown out of the game. As I said before, I was watching the game and it seemed like the ref did indeed try and goad Doc into saying or doing something to get tossed from the game.

 
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I’m going to start this post about Octo-mom off by saiying this. I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT HER!!! I don’t care about the story. Yes, the bitch is sorry, triflin, and crazy with two “R’s.” Yes the doctor should have his license revoked for being irresponsible. Yes, Gloria Allred is a “media whore” or the worse kind. Yes, yes yes. Yes to all of it. But there are two things I do care about. The first one is those fourteen children who will grow up to be adults unleashed on the world. And two, the media frenzy that surrounds this whole thing!
 
I worked for five years at a Teen Drug and Alcohol Treatment center and another two and a half years as a Court Ordered Supervision Monitor. If you don’t know what a Court Ordered Supervision Monitor is, think back to when Brittany Spears was awarded supervised visits with her kids. I was one of those people who did that type of work. No, I never monitored Brittany and her kids. So get that thought out of your head! But I worked with kids and teens in both of those settings and I saw first hand the effects of neglect on their mental health. Like most people, if you feel no one cares about you, you don’t care about them. And that attitude manifests itself in teens and adults acting out in violent ways. Both to hurt others and to hurt themselves. There have been a rash of killings in the last two weeks with males shooting their parents, grandparents, and/or aunts and uncles. Far too many times, the people killed weren’t even family. They were innocent bystanders who happened to cross paths with someone who had a grudge against the world to settle. And they just happened to be in the way.
 
What does this have to do with “Octo-mom“? For starters, there is NO WAY she is going to be able give attention to all fourteen of those children. And that means one, two, seven or eight or ALL of those fourteen children will feel neglected. Regardless of what Grandma and Grandpa do to try and help out, you only get one biological mother. And that attention only she can give. There is no way possible that some of those babies won’t get “lost in the shuffle.” And when he, or she, turns 13, 14, or 15, and is full of rage and anger, who might be the victims? Yup, you and me! While it galls me that this woman is getting a house, childcare, and all of the things that go along with having that many kids, FOR FREE, on OUR DIMES, it might just be an investment in our future safety!
 
The second thing is the media and the over exposure of this whole thing. I’m sick of all of it. The final straw for me was a picture of people with cameras, obstensibly the paparazzi, actually standing in front of AND HANGING OFF of the car she and some of her children were in. Pardon the pun, but there is something wrong with that picture. Continue reading “I don’t care” »

A few days after Barack Obama, (still sounds good doesn’t it?) was elected to the presidency, Oprah Winfrey had Will Smith on her show to hype his then new movie, “Seven Pounds.” She asked him how he felt about the elections. Smith said that he had all of his children around him and began to cry when the final numbers were tallied. At that point Oprah made a comment something to the affect “what does this mean for African America children.” And Will said “no more excuses.” At that point both Ms. Winfrey and Mr. Smith showed just how far from reality they both reside. Because one, the elections, certainly have NOTHING to do with the other, Black people’s success or lack there of! President Obama can’t stop law abiding citizens from being harassed by law enforcement and his election certainly doesn’t mean that it will end!
 
I have been harassed my the law enforcement agencies in San Diego, ca, more times than I care to remember. From being followed in El Cajon and La Mesa, ca, to almost having my car flip over after a tire blew out and having the Highway Patrol threaten to tow my car away because “your car is in the way.” (On the shoulder of an off ramp). None of these situations bring back fond memories, nor do they endear me to any members of law enforcement, straight or GAY! But hearing about a slick little trap in the small town of Tenaha, Texas, brought it all back for me.
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This economy has been a boon for people who prey on other people. Both legal and illegal. People trying to get your personal information are using both online and offline means to try and trick you into revealing your social security numbers, bank account numbers, and financial institution’s passwords. These losers are even using Job boards like Monster.com and Careerbuilder.com to get your Full name, address, and your phone number from your online resumes. So while you are innocently trying to find a job to support your family, predators are looking to steal your identity. And the newest twist on the bottom feeder Hall of Fame are debt collectors calling the family of deceased people and attempting to get money from THEM!
 
Legally, you aren’t responsible for that debt. The estate of that person is responsible for the debt. If you are the executor of the estate, any assets can be seized or sold to pay off the debt. But someone calling you and saying that “aunt Maybel” had a $326.00 debt at a local business, often not local to YOU, and they want to get paid. Many times out of sense of duty, you feel bound to pay off that debt. DON’T! If the debt doesn’t belong to YOU, don’t fall for it! It’s another ruse to separate you from your money. Is that kind of business practice LOW OR WHAT??
 
I myself am a victim of another scam. A debt that by their own BOTTOM FEEDING paperwork was 10 years old, was allowed to be filed. I was IMMEDIATELY hit with a loss of $180.00 to “answer the filling” YUP, I was out $180.00 right out of the gate. And it was $180.00 I really couldn’t afford to spend either. If I had failed to answer the case, I would have lost right then and there. That is what these BOTTOM FEEDERS hope the consumer does. If you don’t respond, THEY WIN! What a great legal system we have, don’t we!
 
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Let me begin by saying this. I have been in a similar situation that this young lady was in. But unlike her, I did not create the situation. It was created for me. And I probably felt just as bad as she did. The difference is that I am still here and she isn’t. Maybe age had something to do with it. Or maybe the fact that I’m not going out like that is the reason I’m still here. But either way, I feel little sympathy for her. I just DON’T!
 
I just read an article that stated a young girl committed suicide because of a “sexting” incident. For those of you who don’t know what “sexting” is, it’s sending sexy, nude, or pornographic pictures over your cell phone or other wireless device. This young lady sent the pictures to her then boyfriend, who after they broke up, sent those pictures to other girls, and you can bet the guys already saw them, who proceeded to make her life miserable. Miserable to the point that she hated going to school. And this is where the similarities begin.
 
At San Diego City College, there was a rumor that I was a lesbian. No one ever said they saw me with another woman. No one ever said they saw me do anything with any women. What was said is that I “looked” at other women. YUP, that was my crime! Not like Jack Tripper used to look at Chrissy, Janet, and Terry, just looked at them. And I endured semesters of whispers, murmurs, and pointing. And should someone not have known about my “crime“, it was quickly brought to their attention. Luckily for me, most of the people who were “told about me” didn’t seem to care. They continued to talk to me and it didn’t matter. But yes, there were times when I didn’t want to go to class. And times where I was ready to toss people off of the second floor of the building we were on. But I was in my mid twenties and saw the bigger picture. And the fact that I was usually one of the people who always “fucked up the curve“, I was able to get my revenge that way! No one had the balls to come up to my face and say anything. But the murmurs and other crap were aggravating just the same.
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Most of my blog posts are about my views on things that struck me as wrong or hateful, hurtful, or just mean spirited. I’ve never been one to sit by and let things go on around me that were wrong and not try and stop it. In high school, both by brother and I were known to be people who would break up fights. People would literally have fights on the other end of the campus to make sure we weren’t around to stop it. I’ve also never been one to let people say and do whatever they wanted to do to me without me standing up for myself. I have lost jobs, when I couldn’t afford to lose jobs, because I REFUSED to let people lie on or about me. So when I initially read the article about some doctors forcing patients to sign waiver agreements it got my blood boiling. Essentially these “doctors” don’t want you to complain about the treatment they give you. There are web sites that you can go to, Vitals.com, Dr.Score.com and RateMD.com, that have ratings of doctors and their medical care. Medical type posts aren’t usually my foray, they are left to my mother’s blog, A Nurse’s Journey, but I couldn’t sit by and let this situation pass and not respond to it. If you have nothing to hide Doc, you should welcome a rating system!

If you read my mother’s blog, you will see that she has gone through a myriad of medical procedures and has seen a lot of doctors. Many times I was in the room with her when she met with these people, both male and female. While most of her doctors have been great, some of them have been real losers who really shouldn’t be in the medical profession!

One of the best doctors she has ever had is Dr. John Murphy from Kaiser Hospital in San Diego. This man has continually gone past the “line of duty” in caring for my mother and I will forever be grateful to him. It is neat to see the smiles that come across both my mother’s face and Dr. Murphy’s face when they see each other. His care is one of the reasons my mother is still alive today!

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